It's been a long time since i last blogged. I do remember the reason behind my decision to stop blogging two and a half years ago actually - I thought that my life wasn't interesting enough. I thought that blogs have to be entertaining and trashy, because over-reflective people often churn out entries that are so "heavy" and self-assuming.

So it's quite ironic that two and a half years later, all i have to say to that is, "whatever -.-".
And it's even more ironic that two and a half years later, i'm actually starting to blog again, on the day before promos officially start.
Yeah, so sue me loh. kekeke.

But seriously, i feel soooo grown up now, as compared to my blogposts two and a half years ago. The things i whined about two years ago were like, so trivial that it made me seem like some stupid spoilt whiney school girl - which un-loser in the world would lament to the world about how he is not able to fit in? Simply browsing through my old blog made me so embarrassed of myself, that i'm not even going to tell you the url. You can find it yourself, if you ask the right people hah.

...and SO MUCH happened in my absence of blogging that im glad that im like, still alive. I've gone through the disastrous IP years, and am half way through my catastrophic JC1 year. And life is sooo hard now, as compared to my yesteryears. Maybe one day 5 years later i'll look back at this blog post and start laughing at myself again, but whatever, i can live with that.

Living life now means coping with a heavy workload, and dealing with friendships that pop up everywhere. And it just hit me sometime ago, that i'd rather be swarmed with work than be forced to deal with friendshipy-thingys anyday. Work will always be work, and work is finishable and objective. It wouldnt tug your mind and bring your moods down to the point where you just wish that you have nothing to do with that particular something/someone. Concentrating on your work means finishing it, while concentrating on interpersonal-frienships means more emotional baggage and problems to deal with. Thats why i totally embrace work now, because when you put effort into it, you yield results that won't let you down (or at least, not that badly). This 'give-and-receive theory' doesnt actually work in the other sphere, unfortunately haha.

Interpersonal relationships are so complex nowadays. People get together and break up every other day, its freaking hard for anyone to keep track of it, even for a celebrity-gossiper like myself. Sometimes i just wish that every couple in this world would just get married and be forced to live with whatever they've created, be it a mistake or not. THAT would make life so much simpler. There'll be less sob-sob stories, ALOT less teenage-romance-drama-you-see-in-one-tree-hill, and ALOT ALOT less trouble for a gossiper like me xD. Of course, you can argue that there'll be more wife/husband abuse stories, ALOT more cheating cases, and ALOT ALOT more shit in this world. (but at least, these shits dont concern me. arghimsuchabitch.)

I hate this unattainablity of simplicity that only happens when we grow up and 'mature'. Teenage hormones and horrible people are so much trouble; they make me feel like bowing down in defeat to them sometimes. But i'm sure i'll deal, and i won't change how i live my very screwedup life. After all, that's what i've been doing all along, and i'm still living and breathing my wonderful life.

"I might have fallen for that when i was fourteen,
and a little more green,
but its amazing what a few years can mean.

If you're trying to turn me into someone else,
Its easy to see I'm not down with that,
I'm nobody's fool."

It's yixiang blogging again, "it's Britney Bitch."